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[kohaku]

For vegetariansushi I'm not sure if you meant something like this, well, I'm pretty sure you didn't but I felt sad and decided that although I wanted it to turn out differently, to play around with it more, it still works. It strikes me as too bitter, but maybe that's just RL seeping in on the edges.


Subtle

a whispered felony
a single word
mumbled, not even spoken clearly
what broke my heart?
not the betrayal you could not hide in your sleep
but the name you let slip off your tongue
so carelessly
that it almost chattered on the floor.

Comments

[vegetariansushi.livejournal.com]

Oh, dude. DUDE. That's not at all what I had in mind, but it's fucking gorgeous. And yeah, maybe it's a little bitter, but then, who in that situation wouldn't be bitter?

though, with RL sneaking in, are you okay? I'm online, like, all the time, should you need to talk. *loves*

[kohaku1977.livejournal.com]

I'm fine today, thanks.

And thanks so much for the offer! That is so sweet of you!!!

I'm glad you like it. I mean I wrote it as a response to your poem after all, and it didn't turn out as I wanted it to, but that seldom happens anyway.

But wheee! I'm squeeing. Really!

[vegetariansushi.livejournal.com]

Dude, I can think of one time ever that what I wrote was at all in line with what I wanted to write, so really, you're fine. And the poem was fantastic, so stop worrying!

Seriously, I want you do phone post a poem. Even if you just lock it to me, or something. I'll even buy you the calling card, dude.

Also, yay! with the squee!

I'm glad you're fine. I was worried, because I'm smothering like that. But seriously? I'm on AIM as vegetariansushis, MSN as vegetariansushi @ hotmail.com, and Yahoo as vegetariansushi, usually from about eleven a.m. east-coast-U.S. time to about six a.m. in the same time zone. Which is like, constantly. If there's ever anything you need, let me know, okay?

[kohaku1977.livejournal.com]

I always worry like that. :D Well, not always always...

Phone post. Hum. I do have an audio recorder on my pc. It comes with Win XP. Which is either great or omgno, depends on how I look at it. I will try and record some shorter things tomorrow. Right now my hubby wants to sleep, and we since we share a one room apartement I can't play around as I'd like to. But I promise I will try to do so tomorrow. Eeep. But I will. I think. *laughs* No, I will, honestly. And if this won't work, we can try a calling card :D

Thank you for worrying. That may sound silly, but I do appreciate it. I tend to have times where I feel blue and sad, and need to talk. So I'm more than happy to know that I can IM you anytime. Same here. If you need anything, IM me or mail me or comment. Whatever.

*kisses*

[vegetariansushi.livejournal.com]

I do always worry like that. It's a little bit pathetic, really. If you disappear for more than a few days and I wasn't told about said disappearance, I'll send worried emails, too. It's awful. If I start to smother, tell me to back off, okay? 'cause I don't mean to, really. Just too long working with kids, i think.

You don't HAVE to phone post, I just think that it'd be neat. I love people's voices and accents and stuff.

[kohaku1977.livejournal.com]

My accent's funny. Really. I don't have a neat accent. Most of the time I can't decide whether to speak with an British accent or an American one. I sound differently after watching a movie with American actors.

But I will post some clips right after this comment. I'm uploading right now. *hides*

And it's good to have someone who worries if you vanish. I mean, come on. I'd want that. I normally tell people before I go somewhere, so all's well. Don't worry about worrying. Um. If you get my drift.

[vegetariansushi.livejournal.com]

Your accent - Your voice - is beautiful, love. Also, no one can decide on which accent to use most of the time, including people who've never left America in their lives, including British people and Australian people and Mexicans who pick up the language from American cable channels. My accent changes hour to hour, nearly, depending on how tired I am, what the most recent movie I've watched is, who of my friends I've most recently spoken to / written to, if I've been around my family. . . And it's not just accent that changes, either, it's my entire syntax, the way that I word my sentences and everything. It's quite pathetic.

I'm very pleased that you posted them, lovey. Between speaking with you and myheadgames, I've recorded a couple of my own that I'll post tomorrow, along with a poem in Spanish and some photos that Hannah wanted to see. But not tonight, because like I said in my last comment, it's late and I'm not sure that I'm quite coherent enough to code anything.

hee. I promise that if you vanish, I'll worry. So tell me if you're leaving.

[kohaku1977.livejournal.com]

I can never quite figure out what kind of accent I have. After staying a week in Scotland, people asked if I had spent a great big deal of time there because I apparently adopted the melody of speech. O.o I didn't quite have the accents, just the melody, and my voice raised at the end of sentences. That was strange. I didn't really remembered if I tried to copy or if I just did. Normally I don't think too much about my voice, and I don't worry about my English. I just fretted because it was recorded!

And eeep, post those files! I want to hear your voice!

I promise if I even vanish for longer than a day I will tell you :D

*hugs*

[vegetariansushi.livejournal.com]

Your accent, to my ears, anyhow, is German/English. When I recorded mine I tried really hard to stay in a fairly typical American accent, and I think that I succeeded.

You better tell me. I'd be sad if you went away and left me here all alone.

[kohaku1977.livejournal.com]

Awww, well, I better had a German accent! As long as I'm not sounding like someone stumbling over the English language (which I don't) I'm happy. German/ English... I blame my teachers for the English part. Lovely lovely men and women with cute accents.

You have such a lovely voice and the cutest accent ever. Record more! Longer pieces! :D

And I will tell you in any case :D

[vegetariansushi.livejournal.com]

Hee. You don't sound like you're stumbling at all, love. You're brilliant.

I'm glad that my accent didn't make you run screaming. I was trying so hard to sound properly "normal American" on those. I'll record some longer stuff, but be aware that the accent will change change change. And then you have to promise not to be scared.

[kohaku1977.livejournal.com]

Oh I love accents, so come on! I won't run away. Oooh and changing accents? My poor hubby can imitate a lot of accents and I always ask him to do so. It's always like: Do the Scottish one! Now the Mancunian! Now do a Texan! An Indian! Wheee!!

So there. Sucker for accents :D

[vegetariansushi.livejournal.com]

Hee. I envy people who can change accents at will, because I have a very hard time with that. I'll read. . . hm. I posted a bit of a story a while back that I can read, I guess, because that'd be probably closest to a local accent as you'll ever hear me say. I was concentrating really hard on sounding properly American when I recorded those earlier, so if I'm thinking less about it, my speech will slip up. I will, eventually, hit a point where I'm incomprehensible. It's appalling, really.

[kohaku1977.livejournal.com]

I don't think you can become incomprehensible for me. I want to listen to you again! Come on, record iiiit. You know you want to. *tries to brainwash you* Besides, I really really want to hear your "normal" voice. The way I sound on those files I recorded is teh way I normally sound when I'm speaking English. Sometimes I have a stronger British accents coming through and sometimes (when I'm very nervous) I stumble over words a lot more than I did on the recordings. But other than that it is my normal voice. English voice. Um, I hope you know what I mean.
So read your story or parts of it and don't worry.

*kisses*

[vegetariansushi.livejournal.com]

I'll record more stuff tomorrow - This is kind of a bad day, 'cause there's people here, and I'm amazingly tired.

My "normal" voice is... Hm. My normal voice is not the local accent where I'm from. I spent a lot of time in other states when I was small - mostly North Carolina and Massachusettes - so I have a slight accent from there on some words, and then on others I sound less American and more somewhere-else, probably Canadian. It's hard to explain. I'll try and find something that I can read in my normal voice, though, and I'll read the one thing in one of the local acents from here.

*licks*

[llanowar1977.livejournal.com]

Hey love *huggles*

Subtle is amazing!
The hurt and bitterness you packed in those few words.
Its wonderful in his sadness.

and I'm also here for you if you need me *huggles*

[kohaku1977.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. I'm sorry if I did worry you! I'm alright! I was just poring over the poem and suddenly felt sad. I'm good.

*huggles*

[llanowar1977.livejournal.com]

Then I'm glad *hugs*

I know sometimes you suddenly feel sad without so much reason :D

But nevertheless your poem is great !!! *snuggles*