cleverly disguised as a responsible adult

Thank you so much for the support! I just came home to your lovely comments. *tear* Flist group hug! *squishes you all*

So: All clear! It's nothing! Well, it's just my normal tissue being an arse, but nothing bad! My doc is a very lovely doc who really took his time and checked me four times or something and while we agreed yes, there is a lump, he said it's really nothing, well, threatening or bad or malevolent or anything like that. Just the tissue being more lumpy on one side (bet you needed to know that! How's that for tmi?) and due to my weight loss, it was more visible? touchable? errr, you get the idea! So BIG BREATH OF RELIEF! He also told me it was very good of me to come to have it checked. (And then he even went "Omg, how much weight did you lose? 15 kg??? How on earth did you do that? That's amazing! Good for you!" Which really really calmed me down further.)

Phew. I was so relieved I bought myself chocolate cake after to soothe my nerves. ;)

God, I'm knackered now. That was enough anxiety for the whole month! But, you know, it's good to have something like this checked right away.

More tea now. And much love to you and thank you again. It means the world, really. ♥

I have an appointment today to have a curious lump checked out. In my tit. There really shouldn't be lumps in your tit. :( I'm really glad I got the appointment though. I've been meaning to go for weeks now. This is slightly upsetting even though I am sure it will be nothing.

See you after.

Am back from the hospital. I have minor smoke poisoning, which is why I was dozing in a hospital bed for two hours, breathing sweet oxygen through a mask. I feel like I was run over by a truck but I am better now. Will make myself some hot cocoa and go to bed. I will leave the window open for as long as I can with these temperatures, and cuddle up under all my blankets.

Thank you so much for your support and comments. It really means a lot. ♥

Leverageday! Well, I won't see the finale until tomorrow, but I share the flail!

The new Sherlock Holmes focusses on the relationship between Holmes and Watson, it seems. Hee! Robert Downey Jr said: 'We’re two men who happen to be room-mates, wrestle a lot and share a bed. It’s badass.'

Off to the doc now, my blood results are in. :/

I was having very happy thoughts when I went to bed last night. And then I dreamt of dinosaurs trying to eat me. They were hunting me and a small group of people, and we had this security system made of a lot of doors which might or might not lock and therefore keep the raptors out. And it involved flooding areas in the vain hope they'd drown. The whole dream involved a lot of running. WTf, subconsciousness?

I realised I cannot chew properly today. I'm expected to show up for lunch at the new grandparent's place and my mother cooked. *sighs* I hope I can go home after tea. They are sweet folks, but my teeth hurt.

Climbed out of bed late, so my hair is a mess. The front looks fine, but it's sticking up at the back. Most glorious bedhead ever.

My temperature is back to normal! Yay for me! You can see at the number of my posts how good I feel. ;) When a post is missing I was too ill to leave bed.

Here's a really sweet poem. No, not one of those heavy bunny inducing things, those I save for my stories ;)
I like it nevertheless. Sometimes not heavy bunny inducing is better. I have to get back to health first. Then my bunnies.
Here you go!


Someone to know me

At first it seemed shocking
but now the idea
tickles my tongue.
and intrigues my curiosity
beyond the ability
to rationalize or resist:

I want to live with you!

I want to wake
each morning
in your arms

comforted by your oddness

seduced by your knowledge
of my ways.

I want to care for you

brush your hair
put lotion on your scars

and pet you at bedtime,
watching your eyes close slow
like a child's
heavy with the thousand things
that filled your day.


All applause be kindly directed once again to Jewel. Thanks.

I still have the cold. Big time.

But I thought I could update my journal while checking my mails. I really had to check my mails, because I'm on several mailing lists (*waves* Hey guys!) and I'd drown in mail, if I didn't.

Watched Harry Potter yesterday. Good movie. Not brilliant, well no surprise here, but good. Surprising. And I totally forgot about the ending!

Since I have fever I'm allowed to take all the quizzes I want!
Here you go, follow quiz addicted folks!




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Hi there.

Suffering from a cold (feels like flu though), this will be a rather short entry.
Muse is also ill, plot bunnies are hiding under my bed. They seem to know what's good for them.

Off to bed now. Just wanted to let the people now I'm still alive.