Thank you for providing it. I feel lucky that it triggered so much; I didn't think I'd have more than a paragraph or two to say when I started writing.
"Makes me wonder about Jake's reaction. It's good that you haven't written one down though."
I originally had written more about the conclusions he was drawing about what the problems were, at least. But I felt like they were tripping up the flow. I thought of it as, Jake is in a place where the pain of the breakup is too much for him to think straight. He can't make cause and effect connections yet. There are just these painful memories that come up, and bounce off of each other.
When I read that Kirsten had briefly (at least according to that one article) gone out with Heath, that was kind of the glue. So even before the breakup had anything to do with his mindset, Jake had a reason to be a little jealous of Heath, at the same time he was becoming uncomfortably aware of his attraction to Heath, at the same time he thought Heath was kind of a jerk.
And the thing about Kirsten saying, neither of you are gay, so you are going to have to do a lot of acting, hmmm. That sounded a little odd. She knew both men intimately. So I was thinking, what if, at the subconscious level, she already senses that she is going to have to protect herself against abandonment by Jake, the same way she could sense that it would never work with Heath. Both sweet and sensitive in their different ways. The same qualities that make them appeal to her, she knows from experience will ultimately mean that she, as a woman, can never give them everything they want in a relationship. So the thing about her high school boyfriends was supposed to link those thoughts together.
Thank you so much! I feel lucky that it came together fairly easily, and that I was able to stay up late and finish it. Both kind of rare. I'm working on one based on Joey's meme challenge, but it's taking longer to assemble.
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Re: simple, continued
Date: 2004-07-27 11:06 pm (UTC)Thank you for providing it. I feel lucky that it triggered so much; I didn't think I'd have more than a paragraph or two to say when I started writing.
"Makes me wonder about Jake's reaction. It's good that you haven't written one down though."
I originally had written more about the conclusions he was drawing about what the problems were, at least. But I felt like they were tripping up the flow. I thought of it as, Jake is in a place where the pain of the breakup is too much for him to think straight. He can't make cause and effect connections yet. There are just these painful memories that come up, and bounce off of each other.
When I read that Kirsten had briefly (at least according to that one article) gone out with Heath, that was kind of the glue. So even before the breakup had anything to do with his mindset, Jake had a reason to be a little jealous of Heath, at the same time he was becoming uncomfortably aware of his attraction to Heath, at the same time he thought Heath was kind of a jerk.
And the thing about Kirsten saying, neither of you are gay, so you are going to have to do a lot of acting, hmmm. That sounded a little odd. She knew both men intimately. So I was thinking, what if, at the subconscious level, she already senses that she is going to have to protect herself against abandonment by Jake, the same way she could sense that it would never work with Heath. Both sweet and sensitive in their different ways. The same qualities that make them appeal to her, she knows from experience will ultimately mean that she, as a woman, can never give them everything they want in a relationship. So the thing about her high school boyfriends was supposed to link those thoughts together.
Thank you so much! I feel lucky that it came together fairly easily, and that I was able to stay up late and finish it. Both kind of rare. I'm working on one based on Joey's meme challenge, but it's taking longer to assemble.